My thoughts - messed up

Happy diwali

2006-10-21T16:02:59Z

moonshine2005 @ 2006-07-22T12:41:00

2006-07-22T07:18:36Z

Got a new fish bowl today as the old one broke today morning while cleaning.
Those guys might be happy, new big house.. colorful stones..yaahhyaaayy.
Got two new friends for them, small ones. The tank seems to be a bit bigger but its ok,they are happy with lot of space , big world and new friends.

We were discussing wht they will be thinking of their new house and how do they feel.

Happy Life!!!!

Taken one photo - Top view- I dint like this photo much. Now I m not in a mood to take photo.
Anyway I've taken one.

Week end

2005-09-16T12:10:31Z

Complete training next week.
Same tensions from home. Dont know whats going to happen.

Week end plans - Dont feel Like going to Mysore. Hope it will cancel. But if it there i have to go I'm commited. hmmmmmm

I am scared

2005-09-13T03:27:18Z

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.

You tend to take more than give in relationships.

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You are fickle and tend to fall out of love easily. You bounce from romance to romance.

Saturday boring

2005-09-10T07:41:58Z

Came to office to do some work.
Got the pictures of some cartoons.
Printer is not working sooo stupid....

Will go to shopping today. I dont want to spend much money....

Good morning

2005-09-09T03:08:48Z

I came to office just now. Came too early today.
Dint have breakfast and not feeling like.....

No meetings,no conn calls today... weekend mood..
My phone is not working,Should call them at 10 clock.
I should also collect my food coupons.

Lot of changes in life since the begining of this year.Want to write here all those one day...
Not now people are coming.
Have a nice day baby;)

What Do People Truly See You As?

2005-09-06T04:10:46Z

People see you as someone full of self pity. Take
it from me, you must never feel sorry for your
self because things can always get worse. And
if you're a poser you have to learn that in the
real world self pity will get you no where
fast! So all posers need to stop complaining
and just deal with it like the rest of us or
shoot themselves and get it over with! The few
who are not posers but merely full of self
pity, you need to pick yourself up or get on
some Zoloft.

Loosing my mind..

2005-05-05T09:32:59Z

I am not going to leave today..
This is most single DAMN entry,becauses of many reasons -->my browser closed suddenly may be of pressing wrong button,internet getting pissed of sometimes,exiting because of people and other reasons.

Nothing is changing.I am mad,just disappointed.Life is going on same ,like a movie keeping pressed the replay button.
I seem to be so immature depressed ,depresses for no reason.:Depressed but getting nowhere.Everyone,I mean everyone thinks I'm stupid.
I realize life is going to pass me by anyways:

Ready or not, some day it will all come to an end. There will be no more sunrises, no days, no hours or minutes. All the things you collected, whether treasured or forgotten,will pass to someone else.

Your wealth, fame and temporal power will shrivel to irrelevance. It will not matter what you owned or what you were owed.

Your grudges, resentments, frustrations, and jealousies will finally disappear.

So, too, your hopes, ambitions, plans, and to-do lists will all expire. The wins and losses that once seemed so important will fade away.

It won't matter where you came from, or on what side of the tracks you lived.

It won't matter whether you were beautiful or brilliant. Your gender, skin color, ethnicity will be irrelevant.

So what will matter? How will the value of your days be measured?

What will matter is not what you bought, but what you built; not what you got, but what you gave.

What will matter is not your success, but your significance.

What will matter is not what you learned, but what you taught.

What will matter is every act of integrity, compassion, courage and sacrifice that enriched, empowered or encouraged others to emulate your example.

What will matter is not your competence, but your character.

What will matter is not how many people you knew, but how many will feel a lasting loss when you're gone.

What will matter is not your memories, but the memories of those who loved you.

What will matter is how long you will be remembered, by whom and for what.

Living a life that matters doesn't happen by accident.

It's not a matter of circumstance but of choice.

Ha, this reminds me of times when i sit before computer for hours and not knowing what to write becuase my boring life is just so boring.How long this is going to be?Will there be any change?

I'm gonna go and cry now :((

Even though I never do wrong,but i get held responsible for the whole thing.What is the point? Perhaps no one likes me.
Sometimes i feel parents are worse.They think they know everything,and refuse to be wrong but most importantly they are not fair.Just because they are the boss,they can't take advantage of that.Just because they can control what is going on,they still have to be fair with their judgements or atleast be reasonable.

I dont understand this world and I'm sure things world doesnt understand me.I feel so out of place.I can't do anything.I am not saying i am right and everyone is mean except.I dont know what to do.
Things are not going in my way,they are terribily wrong.

My mind messed up I cant think straightly.I think i changed the font color thrice first ti was black,then blue,then green and now this ans same with font size too.I dont know why i have done like this.

I lost my mind.

Which Disney princess are you

2005-04-30T07:47:58Z

What Kind of Girl Are You?

You are a New Age Girl!

You're bright, opinionated, and dedicated to changing the world.
Even if it's one hybrid car at a time, you do you part to make things better.
In fact, you may be so busy with your causes that you have little time for love.
Take an extra yoga class or two, and you just might meet New Age Guy!

Why Can't I Let Go

2005-04-29T06:08:38Z

   All alone.....
   walking through the abyss of the sea,
                               looking,
                                 waiting....
                                 When will I ever see you again?
                                 It has been three months now,
                               and my heart hasn't stopped loving u.
                               I know we are over,
                               but still I can't let go.

                                 I can't let go off all your memories...
                                 your laughter that filled my heart
                               with so much joy,
   joy that I never felt

                                 when?
                               when will i ever see u again?
                                 when?
                                 when will my heart stop loving you?

From my Diary

2005-04-22T07:25:47Z

Hang on girl.Be patient.If you want things to happen to you open up your mind.Notice people around you.Start learning things.Start doing things you have never done before.Start travelling.Get in control of things.

At your age most people think of the same things.A nice job,a good life,someone to love,independence,...etc.Theres nothing wrong with you.

The best way of learning to do something is to start doing it rightaway.If you want to be more uninhibited start being so rightaway!You may appear queer for the first few days but you ll get over it.

So there...way to go girl.You want to be smart....start being smart in everything you do.And dont be afraid to listen and learn.
mlavu

These words in my diary really cheered me up.I know
HarryPotter would never come in real but WORDS are more
powerful ,they can heal.They offer us hope and devastation.

I thank a lot to anonymous friend...

Presence at Sri Kaalahasti

2005-04-17T18:09:47Z

Arrived there by 6:30 in the morning after 6 hours of journey. Well-cleaned railway station, neat and wide roads, went to devasthanam guest house by 7 o clock,Refreshed and reached to temple in just five min by walk.
There initiated looting us by the name of God. We were surrounded by a crowd of people with lot of packets containing coconuts,leaves,flowers etc etc.Finally we were forced to buy a packet worth Rs50/- containing one coconut , few leaves (Bilva patraalu- admired by Lord Shiva) , three kind of flowers among which one was lily (the other two i have never seen them) loved ones by Lord as said by the people there.
Then got a ticket for Rs 250 /-,Rahu Ketu pooja ,and again a small packet of flowers of Rs 20 ,which contained again few bilva patraalu and few petals of pink lotus flower. Pooja was started exactly by 9 o clock in Raahu kaalam continued for half an hour,directions were given by the poojari in two languages telugu and tamil,more than 50% of the dities performing pooja were tamilians.Beside me were two tamilian girls,black beauties with long hair.Two small snakes one with single head and other with four heads ( Rahu and Ketu ) (size - 2inches) made of silver were given to carry through the pooja and all these were put in Hundi of the main temple.Pooja, darsanam everything was finished by 1 o clock.Thought of doing some shopping there but everyone was tired by that time. :(

There was a small saying in telugu 'yatra ki velthey paatra konaali'........But no time as we were supposed to leave by 5 o clock..
So i bought only two toys for me { and no paatra for my mom :( }
A small yellow color duck and a kangaroo along with its baby. :D

Feeling much sleepy .....
OK few Tamil words before going to sleep.
Nan nallaa irukeanga, neenga peadi irukeinga? --- > I m fine how about u ?
Purunchuthungala? --> Understood

few more later .. now zzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

eee daaaw....

2005-04-13T07:31:01Z

Pics of little chap taken on his first birthday with my webcam,.his lot of expressive faces

Watches tv a lot,his fav channel is POGO, best loved ones - boobah,tele-tubbies,Noddy,Mr.Thomas, and above all which i too love to watch is The gang ..of Baby Loonely Tunes. Buggs bunny,Tweety,Tazz ,the most cute and garrulous Daffy in diapers.

His dialogues ... eeee daaaw ( while jumping),ameee ( calls everyone) ,ey (utters many times while listening).

His actions ... blinks eyes (eyes),lifts nose as if sneezing (nose),moves hands left and right (excercise),jumps (legs),holds 2 hands together and bows a little (praying,faking & hacking us),does all this ..gives a broad smile turning towards us, kingly,for everyones apprecitation.

Plays a lot with me,when his mom leaves here with me. and he very fond of computer too....want to catch the blue light of oopher and likes to sit on revolving chair.

First entry

2005-04-12T17:28:45Z

Feeling lonely....